I remember the thrill and excitement to hear about the birth of my new little brother. Wow!!! I couldnt wait to see him. He was my baby, no one could take him away. Being young once helps you relate to the little ones today. I learned from being young that not everything older people say that they think is funny is really funny and can scar a child for life. :) LOL For example, when I was little I was constantly being told by people, "I'm going to keep your little brother!!". I would stand there holding on to my mother's leg looking up at this person and cry and beg for them not to do it; "NO, he's my little brother!!!" I cried. Papichin and I grew up close, taught each other how to ride a bike and do other childhood adventures. I was so afraid to ride a bike, afraid to fall, he wasnt. Although younger than me he was the one to reassure me that while going down the drive way hill I would be able to keep my balance and pedal away. It seemed like he always knew more, was smatter and he did!!! He would act like an older brother not a younger one. He was always ready to help and find a way out of situations.
One day we'll be able to tell him how much he was missed but for now we will continue to remember him and keep him in our hearts and thoughts. A couple of months after Papichin falling sleep in death I received the news I was pregnant. Later they tell me it could be a boy and expected date of birth would be 1/2/03. I was thrilled!!! Not only did they tell me it could be a boy but the expected birth date was close to Papichin's. Although things didnt quite work out that way I was still thrilled to bring into this world a beautiful baby girl born 12/23/02. As I held her in my arms thoughts of my brother flashed through my mind. Although he was not physically there, he WAS there in my thoughts. He would've been there if he could because he never missed those special family moments, you see, he was a family man, family came first and he wanted to keep us all together. That day I dedicated a song to my daughter Brittany like I did to my other daughter Brianna (A whole new world) only this time the song was also for my brother:
